Music: Xzibit Loses His Newborn Son
Despite me not posting a single thing about the untimely death of Maria Chapman (daughter of Steven Curtis Chapman), I was still rocked by the news. It become a bit more personal when a few of the people I knew, knew the Chapmans closer than most.
I couldn’t stop thinking about my son, so close to Maria’s age. I swore, if I didn’t tell him “I love you” and hug and kiss him a hundred times a week prior to, I just increased that love twice over since then.
Now I am just finding out about Xzibit’s newborn son, Xavier, born on May 15th (two days before my birthday) only to pass away as his father gives the news this morning on his myspace blog.
Xzibit writes:
AS you all know, I shared with you the announcment of my newborn son Xavier Kingston Joiner on may 15th and also informed you that he was born prematurly. well this week was extremly difficult for him because his lungs were not strong enough to handle regular oxygen on his own. Xavier passed away this morning at 3:30am and I must tell you this, It is unatural for a parent to bury a child. I am telling you this because of the same reason I tell you when im having great times, life is too short to be fake. Hold on to your kids if you have them, protect them and show them you love them everyday you wake up and see them, dont take a second you get to hug them teach them and care for them for granted. You can have all the material wealth in the universe but it is NOTHING compared to having your family. I am thankful for all of my blessings and im not one to question God’s perfect plan, so I leave you with great love and thanks for the love that was sent earlier on my pervious blog to my son. Of course I need to take some time and handle my loss, STAY FOCUSED PEOPLE. Its not promised to any of us.
Xzibit’s words will rock me for a long, long time. What really impacted me is that in the midst of the darkness, loss and tragedy, Xzibit chooses to be satisfied in God.
That makes God beautiful. That gives glory to God and God alone.
I am not sure if I were to lose my son that I would be as strong as the words written today.
But I will not worry about tomorrow.
I will think about today.
I will think about my son.
Using more of Xzibit’s words that he wrote for his son way back in 1996 from his song “Foundation“. I can’t think of a more perfect way to describe my child:
When I look you in your eyes I can see my own
Straight love manifested in flesh and bone
Love you, Yusef. All that I have and forever. My love will not stray.
yes. i saw my kiddos differently after reading this news this morning. so tragic. but yet, at the same time, so beautiful. to see his response to this and know that God is glorified and that precious baby is safe in his Fathers arms…it’s all too big to wrap my head around…
Not worrying about tomorrow is so hard for me. I have two boys of my own and I cannot imagine burying one of them. They are my most intimate and sacred treasure, yet the most vulnerable too. I had no idea what “faith” truly meant until I had kids. It was much easier to trust God with my cat, if you know what I mean.
Not to be even more of a downer- but the group Selah…are you familiar with them?
About 8 weeks ago- Todd, one member of the group- they lost their baby girl- she only lived for a couple of hours. This past week- Nicol- the GIRL in the group Selah- her 3 month old baby died- they think of SIDS.
crazy huh?
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
It never rings truer then at times like this.
Baruch ha Shem Adonai
Indeed.
Although death brings sadness, especially when it comes to newborns, it shouldn’t be looked at as such, but as a new beginning in the Afterlife.
“Every man dies, not every man truly lives.” - Braveheart
My prayers go out to you and your family. i went through a similar situation with my son almost two months ago. i found out he passed while i was 9 months pregnant, 2 weeks before i was due. i agree with you that no parent should have to bury their child. its a horrible feeling that no one should have to go through. but know this, your baby will not ever have to feel pain or suffering. some people only dream of angels, but you held one in your arms!
God Bless