Rant: Don’t Want To Do This
Ignore this post. I had to blast this out. -Ed.
Lord,
This type of work beats me down. It takes all of my strength. I hate doing this line of work. I don’t care about technology. I would give anything to not know what I know.
I feel like I do nothing significant.
How do I go from the highest of the high in being in a position to help somebody find a job in something they love to do, give a guy all the cash in my pocket and lending my cell phone to a lady looking for her friend who came to pick her up…
… to absolute dread and madness of working in something tech.
I am beyond anger and frustration for every second I have to even endure a software upgrade, troubleshooting a router or server setup.
But…
I will only do this if this is Your will, my Lord.
But in order for me to do Your will, Your word promises us that You would give us that endurance. You also promised us strength and wisdom.
If this is not Your will, then take it all from me. Remove all of my endurance, strength, understanding and wisdom.
Let me collapse.
I can’t do it by myself.
I refuse to do it by myself.
I rather just lie down and worship You. I rather just sing Your praises. Till I die.
For it is in your beautiful name I am so desperate to pray,
Amen
i have been thinking the same thing
while we have different jobs, we work in the same field….
i could care less if your phone system is not working and you cannot get email….
do you know jesus?
that is what my heart is screaming!!!!!
i am tired of being demeaned by customers because i do not have a nose i can twitch and make it all better the second they want it!
Lord, I echo Joe’s prayer…..if you have us (or anyone) in a job where they are burnt out, exhausted, frustrated, worn down, leave crying every day….
move there spirits toward an understanding of your spirit or move them to something new.
something they can be proud of!
something that there hearts are longing to do!!
give us strength and wisdom Lord as we wait for you!
amen
You know what.
I knew this would happen.
Seconds before this post, I laid down and chatted to God. (I really did lay down in my conference room and chatted with Him.)
Minutes after this post, I spoke to my boss.
In that conversation, I blurted out, “You know, I wish you (boss) and I were college buds. I wish that I was simply here to help you to get your business off the ground while I find my place in this world.”
Then I went to make a client run then a beer run.
Then it dawned on me: why can’t I do that? Instead of feeling frustrated by the contents of my job, why can’t simply declare:
I am here to help you.
God showed me that He knows I am beat down but He needs me to be here right now. I know this. But with a simple change of perspective, I am now going from “Ugghghhhghg , I hate all technology!!!!” to “Right now, I am helping out a good friend of mine with his Apple-based Solutions business.”
I just wanted to see this from somebody else’s eyes, not my own. It is a world of difference.
it’s amazing what we can do when we choose to do it for HIM.
who are you impacting in your work place?
what are they seeing in you?
for His Glory
love you brother.
so much!
It gets even better.
My boss wants to start giving me days off in order to intern with my church or do outreach missions.
Nothing set in stone but he wants to do whatever it takes to help me out.