In the past two months, the Holy Spirit has been leading my mind to search out and look at relationships. What started out as studying relationships between people and between husband and wife eventually led to the relationship between Christ Jesus and the Church and then, of course, the relationship between God and his children.

The one relationship that keeps me wanting to be closer and closer to God would have to be Cain.  Yes, the same selfish, thankless, merciless individual who murdered his brother just because Cain wasn’t gracious to God and Abel was.

What I love about this passage is how this line of questioning is so much like the Spirit of God:

Genesis 4:5-6 (NKJV) but He did not respect Cain and his offering. And Cain was very angry, and his countenance fell.

So the Lord said to Cain, “Why are you angry? And why has your countenance fallen?”

How crazy is it that God is the same then as He is now and will forever be.

I could have used verses 1-4 to lead in to tell more of the story and I could have kept going past verse 7 and told of the first murder. But those two verses right there, 5 and 6, make me yearn for something more in my relationship with Him.

It has become one of my deepest desires to get to a place where, not just in a change in your attitude or even walk with God, but even a change in how you are feeling from moment to moment causes God to ask you, “Why do you feel that way?” or to make you really think about it, “What are you feeling right now?”.

This is not like having a conversation even with people where you can still kinda, sorta hide your true deep feelings as you are trying to sort them out in your head.  This is a conversation with God, who being… well… God, already knows the answers to the questions He is asking you.  1 Kings 8:39 says “… for You alone know the hearts of all the sons of men“  I keep thinking when God asks those type of questions, He is wanting for you to see where your heart is at the moment.

Don’t be scared of letting God dig deep into your heart and letting Him change it for good and to give Him glory and to heal you.

So good is the promise of God set in 1 John 3:20-22: For if our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and knows all things. Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence toward God.  And whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do those things that are pleasing in His sight.

Think about the times where you felt feelings that you were not particular proud of.  Think about those moments as you go about your day today.  Give God a chance to turn to you and ask “Why are you feeling lonely?”, “Why do you worry?”, “Why are you so angry?”.   Give Him every opportunity to have that deep personal intimate relationship that He wants with you.