I have prayed for months for God to uncover anything left in my heart that was not like His heart.  I looked over and over again and kept coming up with nothing.

Last night, God did just that.  Now I am a simplified idiot because of it.

I am going to go forward relying on two things for right now.  One, that my God so achingly beautiful in his continuous love and forgiveness of piece of crap like me.  Secondly, I have to trust that the word of God is good and that He will do what He says He will do.

I really don’t have anything to write.  But I am going to throw out scripture after scripture in hopes of figuring out something.  One part of me wants to figure out something so I will have peace.  A large part of me wants to not figure out anything so I can remain an idiot that is totally dependent upon the Lord.

I have just one thought of Solomon’s words preoccupying my thoughts:

1 Kings 3:7 (NKJV) “but I  am a little child; I do not know how to go out or come in.”

I am a jacked up individual.  I have to rely on God just to make it to the next day.  I have no idea where I am going.  I have no idea of what I am going to do tomorrow.  I simply do not know.  I do not know anything.

ht: Matt Chandler’s Sovereign Over all (Luke Part 5)