God, I just wanted healing for these infections upon my heart.  I didn’t want to be in pain any longer.  I didn’t want to collapse because my heart failed me.

But what if this is my thorn?  But what if this is my broken hip?  But what if this is my firstborn who died after a week?

Then let me stumble over and over again if that means I always looking to You.  Let me constantly collapse if that means I long after You.  Let me fail a million times over if that means I stay desperate after You.

You alone are my heart’s delight. There is none I desire besides You.

ht: Matt Chandler’s Sovereign Over all (Luke Part 5)