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My girlfriend thinks this is a bit lengthy.
Well, she is the one who suggest writing a new bio page to see if God wants me to say anything different.
Maybe this is what she had in mind.
Read it here.

I read the articles on Todd Bentley (article) and Michael Guglielmucci (article) and I keep thinking about three promises in the Bible.
My first instincts were “Ugh!”, “What the crap!”, “Why should I be surprised!” and insert whatever thoughts I can think to make me all high and mighty and better than those guys.
But the Holy [...]

My blogosphere-yet-soon-to-meet-in-real-life friend, Cindy Beall, tagged me two weeks ago.
It is sorta fresh on my brain thanks to another blogosphere friend, Crystal Renaud, who challenged us admitting our strengths. So already, I am in the mindset on how God created me uniquely.
I won’t take the easy route of redirecting people to my testimony because that [...]

I suck.
Romans 3:23 (ESV) for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,
I was going to die.
Romans 6:23 (ESV) For the wages of sin is death…
Fortunately, God doesn’t suck.
Luke 18:19 (ESV) … No one is good except God alone.
God knew I sucked, loved me anyway and because He loved me so much, [...]

God loved that porn actress & porn actor.
God loved my child molesting father.
God loved my ex-wife.
God loved me.
And His grace was sufficient to save us all.
And His death on the cross saved me.
I walked into my apartment, fell to my knees and I prayed:
Dear God,
I suck at this. I suck at living this life You [...]

Still, I am wrestling with lying, pissed, bitter and lust and losing.
All of these things have taken root within me. They have become my stronghold and fortress. A castle, yes but built on sand.
I had convinced myself that I was allowed to be all of these things because my wife left me. My wife cheated [...]

Year 2007 rolls around.
I am taking a lot of church invites. Went to Potter’s House, Fellowship Church, Prestonwood Church, Irving Bible Church. Went to my old home church. Went to smaller churches.
They were all well and good. But not compelled to stay at any of them. I keep telling myself I need more meat. I [...]

Now on December 15, 2005, I am left with nothing.
For one day, I went to work. I came home. I felt sorry for myself. I went to bed by 6PM. I was sleeping on an air mattress on the floor.
I got up the next morning at 5PM. I made a list of goals I need [...]

I am in the Air Force.
My dad and stepmom were so sure of their innocence that they take their case to court. The courts then sentences them to life in prison.
Wow, that should have healed me and made me normal.
Why do I still have all this bitterness, coldness, darkness and hopelessness inside?
Why would it be [...]

I now live with my grandmother at the age of 12.
Wow, I am going to church on a regular basis.
Wow, I get an allowance of $2.50 per week and all you want is some chores done? Done.
During those previous 7 years of hell, I was the only one being sexually abused while only 4 of [...]