Ten Years Ago
I was a pornographer. I was the creator and the evangelist for all things pornography.
I used to take women, expose them sexually, to strip them of any dignity they had. I used to make sure that content would fuel my wanton lusts and lustful desires of millions of others.
I was not ashamed in [...]
I just realized that so many of my posts were full of arrogance and pride. I never realized this until just this moment.
I am so sorry.
I am stopping all posts indefinitely.
John 12:49 For I have not spoken on my own authority, but the Father who sent me has himself given me a commandment—what to say [...]
Yesterday afternoon, my friend hit me with something that I haven’t stopped wrestling with since. He said:
“When you are the guy with all the right answers, you might come off as haughty.”
I drove off in my car and several minutes later, this is what slammed in my heart:
“When you are the guy with all [...]
When you ordain ministers who are known, proud and unrepentant sinners, don’t be shocked when you see your church shrink in size.
When you don’t call out sinners to repent and break themselves before the Almighty God, don’t be shocked when people are not attracted to God.
When you ignore the Holy Spirit of the Bible who [...]
God has placed eternity into your heart and soul so that you will know that only God can fill your heart:
Ecclesiastes 3:11 (ESV) He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man’s heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the [...]
Jesus Christ said in:
John 12:27-28 (ESV) “Now is my soul troubled. And what shall I say? ‘Father, save me from this hour’? But for this purpose I have come to this hour. Father, glorify your name.” …
This is the breaking point of Christ as He goes from earthly ministry of teaching, healing, preaching and counseling [...]
Over the last couple of months, I have been struggling to truly and clearly identify the desires of my heart. I will read Psalm 37:4 and think, “Okay, I place God first in my life for He knows the desires of my heart and I don’t have to worry about them.”
But what are the desires [...]
From The Advertiser’s article, “Porn-again pastor tells of his addiction and shame“:
“For over 16 years, I have struggled with an addiction to adult pornography. As a result of this secret life of sin my body would often break down,” his confession began.
“Two years ago, I reported that I was suffering from cancer. The truth is [...]
I will not celebrate that I did bunch of things in order to be with my God.
I will celebrate the fact that at my very worst, at my ugliest, God was trying to romance me. Even for this piece of dung, He couldn’t possible love me more. So much so, delivered His wrath that He [...]
God, I just wanted healing for these infections upon my heart. I didn’t want to be in pain any longer. I didn’t want to collapse because my heart failed me.
But what if this is my thorn? But what if this is my broken hip? But what if this is my firstborn who died after a [...]